Hello..

Christmas went by so fast.. just like everything else nowadays. Everything just goes by like a blur, especially when I begin to enjoy something. Christmas was alright, saw family members and such. I missed my little cousins.. boy, are they growing up quick. They're so funny.. besides that, I spent some time with some friends.

For some reason I don't enjoy being at home. I love my family.. but it seems so sad. Maybe it is the memories or maybe.. it is something else. I still have so many things to decide and most of the time I wonder why am I here. I sound so emo but I'm sure everyone feels blah sometimes. I really should get some shit done.. but it is so hard to move on. What does it take for me to feel happiness? What does it take for me to feel.. good?

Do you know how it feels.. when it seems like you care so much for a person.. or even a thing but you may seem disappointed because you expected so much more in return? I think people call that selfish.. but it is quite an uneasy feeling.

I think you've changed.. but maybe I just never seen you this way before.. but I still care for you. If only you knew. Eh..

Jon McLaughlin- So Close

What does it take to feel Happy?