Turned out Saturday Paulinna came over to my house and we just hung out. That night I had another tough one with the tossing and turning and sneezing and coughing and stuff. The next day I woke up around noon and ate and then I pretty much slept the whole day till like 4. I had like 10 missed calls from Ronny. Kevin called to ask me if I wanted to hang out with him Dennis at Danny's. I went to Danny's and they were on WoW and stuff. We later ate some food Danny's sister made. Danny's dad and sister offered us beer. Kevin didn't drink beer but said something like he only drinks Corona and not Budweiser or Heineken, the only beer they had. So Danny's brother-in-law goes buy Corona and Kevin and Danny are telling him not to buy it because Kevin doesn't really drink. He said he only wanted to start a conversation by saying he drinks beer but prefers Corona. So he comes back with Corona and of course Kevin has to drink it because they bought it for him. So he drinks like half of it and he turns real red. I had some cognac with soda and a Corona. We karaoked afterwards and Kevin was red and acting strange but he insists it wasn't the beer. Dennis and Kevin left and Kevin had his half full beer. I thought it was a waste so i drank it. So Danny and I karaoked for like an hour or something through these songs and it was good times. Later Paulinna and Diana came over and sang some more and we ate a little. Quang came later and we talked. We then played some card games. We high carded for Hpnotiq and we finished that. We then played cards for push ups and stuff. Oh yeah, binh was there too but he was playing WoW. After the cards everyone just played WoW or watched. Quang fell asleep and we high carded to see who would draw on his face. We kept playing and we all drew a little something on his face. He didn't notice and we to crash on the sofa. Later Andy came with McDonald's and there was more WoW playing and some poker. Poker with toothpicks because forgot the chips. I was really tired and congested so i was on the couch. I decided to go home at 3 am. I came home took some Nyquil and slept till 1 or something. Now I'm eating and deciding what to do for New Year's Eve, or if anything at all. Well, until next time...

BALLIN'!

Yesterday I woke up at 9 to wait for this guy to come and fix our heater. Turns out our thermostat was broken. I waited for Ti and Julie to come because we were going to play basketball at Jackie Cooper (Ti and I were, not Julie). Julie called me telling me to go get the door but I came outside and there was no one there. I asked her if they were at my house and they said they were but no one was to be found. I figured they must have been at the other house and told them they were at the wrong house. They arrived at my house with breakfast for me =). It seemed half-eaten but it was fine. I ate my breakfast and changed and then we headed to Jackie Cooper. There weren't that many people there yet but we were shootin' around and later people came. Tiep came with shoes for Ti and I to borrow. I got to wear his brand new LeBrons.. haha. We played full court and later half court because the guy told us to because little kids wanted to shoot around. In the end we played another game of full court or two. I cramped up and called it a day. I was feeling really sick and tasted the Dayquil coming up.. tasted like puke.Some people headed to Norman to ball some more at Irving but I was real tired and not feeling very well. I went home and ate and waited for Ti and he came over to chill. He showered and ate while I showered. We talked for a bit and listened to some music and had a little nap together. He left to somewhere and so yeah. After that I went over to Paulinna's to play the Wii and Guitar Hero III. Later some people came and played some board game thing. I did not feel very well so I went home. I listened to some music and then off to bed.

Today I woke up congested and coughing as usual. It is so hard to sleep and I hate it. I woke up at 1 or something and Bryan came over. I had to babysit him for today. We began the day playing video games and then bouncing basketball around and going up and down the stairs. His nap time was supposed to be at 4 but I couldn't get him to sleep. His mommy called (my cousin), and she told me how to make him sleep. So I had to carry him and put him in bed, wrapped him up in a blanket and put the bottle in his mouth. I had to be a little more mean than I wanted to but that is how it had to be done. So now he is sleeping and my brother is sleeping and I am sitting here still wondering what to do tonight. I think I will be watching a movie with Paulinna tonight although Kevin and Binh asked me to go eat with them. I would hang out with Danny but I think he is busy for the day. So that's it.. until next time!

Mustang sucks..

Greetings.

For the last two days I didn't do much but stayed home most the time and went over to Paulinna's to watch movies or play other stuff. Yesterday David from Minnesota came over to Paulinna's and then we went to Cafe Oasis. We saw the Yens, Brian, and his friend Josh. After that we went to the mall and just walked around. After that we went to Liz Ho's house to hang out with Danny, Kevin, Dennis and others. It was quite awkward.. but Danny and I had some Hpnotiq as others played board games such as Monopoly and Cranium. I had 4 cups and I was feeling weird.. I haven't eaten anything since like the morning of the day and I was sick so yeah, I did not feel well at all that night. The whole night I was coughing and sneezing and my throat hurt and shit.. it was sick. I was blowing my nose and there was blood and shit.. disgusting eh? Today woke up went to the bank came home. Some things came up that made me real upset.. when I get upset and lonely.. I play basketball. It was fucking cold so I came back inside. Got more fucking pissed.. so I had a beer. Beer is disgusting, especially Heinekin. It didn't help my feeling of sickness. So I have just been watching Friends, got on WoW and Facebook. I love Friends so much.. I just love Ross and Rachel for some reason. So parents came home and they had dinner because I already ate. I finally took some medicine. I sure hope I feel better.. I never really take medicine.. just how like I never wear my seatbelt. I'm a rebel, I know! I live life on the edge. So this is my life in Mustang.. it fucking sucks. The two things that I looked forward to fucking piss me off and blow me off.

Sometimes there's that kind of person that you want to beat the fuck up.. then months later they show up again.. and you still want to beat that person the fuck up..

Women are starting to annoy me.. not just women but females in general, especially girls. They can be stupid. There are the girls you try to tell the same thing so many times and they never get it. There are the ones that lie. Foolish girls..

I miss Norman.. Being home in Mustang isn't as promising as I thought it would be, but I'll make the best of it.

Hello..

Christmas went by so fast.. just like everything else nowadays. Everything just goes by like a blur, especially when I begin to enjoy something. Christmas was alright, saw family members and such. I missed my little cousins.. boy, are they growing up quick. They're so funny.. besides that, I spent some time with some friends.

For some reason I don't enjoy being at home. I love my family.. but it seems so sad. Maybe it is the memories or maybe.. it is something else. I still have so many things to decide and most of the time I wonder why am I here. I sound so emo but I'm sure everyone feels blah sometimes. I really should get some shit done.. but it is so hard to move on. What does it take for me to feel happiness? What does it take for me to feel.. good?

Do you know how it feels.. when it seems like you care so much for a person.. or even a thing but you may seem disappointed because you expected so much more in return? I think people call that selfish.. but it is quite an uneasy feeling.

I think you've changed.. but maybe I just never seen you this way before.. but I still care for you. If only you knew. Eh..

Jon McLaughlin- So Close

What does it take to feel Happy?

So now I'm blogging.. because BC has one. Hmm.. let's talk about college. College has been so.. different? It really is a big step from high school. I think it shows a little more what life is about. I've been sucking in college. Actually, I fucked up this first semester. I don't know what happened but I don't really regret anything. I wish i studied more and stuff, but boy, what an experience I had. It has been a while since I experienced "fun".. I am now a member of Tau Kappa Omega. I am a member of The Brotherhood. It truly is a brotherhood.. I met like the most awesome people ever and I wouldn't have done it without Tau Kappa Omega. I reached out my circle and did things i never would have ever done. Proud to be a Taiko.. but thinking back I would not have decided to pledge if a particular thing did not happen. Well, this break was off to a good start but its been pissing me off a little. I never had the opportunity to make decisions about my life besides college but now I have, and I am a little scared. Hopefully I will get through this..

Progressing through college and meeting all the people is great, especially the girls and stuff but I have only come to reinforce what I feel for this one girl. I meet all these different personalities, different faces, bodies, styles.. but it just doesn't seem right for me and keeps me thinking back about this girl.. THE girl. It is just really weird thinking about it now because I feel more grown up and it's not puppy love, although it never was. I don't know what I am saying, but I am pretty sure what I am feeling. I just need to get used to that she's found something probably more important than I am.. it feels so weird. I never wanted to let her go, but I never stopped supporting her. I guess I haven't found any girls in college I even like because they're nothing like her.. hmm.. Well, we are planning to hang out this break, which we already have at the mall the other day, which was wonderful. the thing is.. I miss her as i am sitting here. The cute thing about her is when I tell her I miss her and she pretends to not believe me.

Well, I'll try to enjoy my break. Spending more time with my family and that special someone. Oh yeah, and my friends, especially that Danny came back to visit and David will, too. And what about my Taiko brothers? Eh.. I see them too much anyway.. its kind of annoying.. HAHA just kidding. Until next time..

Taneezy out.