blehhhhhhhhhh

after going to the shooting range with Charlie I just slept there and did stuff. Later went with Tammy and Peter to music festival. Almost everyone had a beer. It was most tempting. We went to eat at Taco Bell afterwards. We stopped at Charlie's for a bit then went to some recital they had to do for class. Turns out it is at 10 am instead of pm. Good one, Tammy.

Afterwards we went to Charlie's then I went to shower and then went to Chris's birthday party. I told myself I was going to go nuts. Disappointing myself, I didn't really go nuts. I did do something I don't usually do. I ended with a cuban cigar and I found myself smoking it. I've tried smoking before and it is pretty shitty but it didn't really taste much because I was buzzed from the alcohol, I suppose. I spent about a whole hour trying to finish that cigar because I didn't want to waste it. I was outside the whole time just trying to finish it. I finally finished it and went inside and drank and stuff like that.

Some of us went to Denny's afterwards. I remember it was a really quick meal because I was asleep. It was weird closing my eyes for a few moments and waking up and Trung appeared from no where. I was dropped off at Charlie's and fell to sleep. I woke up refreshed even though it wasn't a long sleep. I drove home to mustang to do laundry and help mow the lawn.

I was planning to get really trashed last night because I didn't want to think about things and I was going to do something that I might've regretted. It wasn't going to be anything stupid or unlawful, just something I should probably do when I am sober. Anyways, I didn't get as "nuts" as I wanted and in the end I kept thinking about things I didn't want to think even more. Its that amount of alcohol in me that just makes me try to think really carefully and cautiously about things. For some reason it makes me really really logical even though physically, I am retarded.

Well, I am home and hungry. Fortunately I'm not hungover anything. My plans for today is just to eat, do laundry, go to Norman, go to the basketball thing and might play, then study for finals. School is pretty much over so I must finish strong. Ugh.. I taste the smoke in my mouth. Later