forever you my girl, forever be my world, you are the only one

i have this thing when i listen to a song i keep listening to it over and over. i would spend a whole day watching the music video on youtube, i spend the whole night listening to it, i would sing it in the car.. its crazy.

lately I've been into this korean music craze. i can't get over how these korean superstars cool lifestyle. the korean pop culture is so much better than the U.S. they have a way better sense of fashion. they always have all these girls crying and going crazy over them its almost creepy (but i wouldn't mind). i read in this interview how they get really tired of their fans sending them too many gifts and one guy said he wished fans wouldn't look up pictures of his family and post them everywhere..

so next time when you're watching a sad music video or a sad korean drama and feel sorry for the guy, reconsider this: in reality he probably has it really amazing!

anyways.. for the 4th my family will be going to San Antonio. we will be going to sea world or something. it wont be that great of an experience for me since i stopped by san antonio and got the gist of it.

nothing too exciting this summer. i doubt that i will be hired for anything i apply for. hopefully i am going to retreat.. because it was fun last time. and then there are 2 birthdays: thinh's and bj's. and then mine! i'm not excited, really.. but i do know what i would want as a gift. i really want some cool crocs.. the ones with the warm stuff inside so i can wear during cold weather. or some fine cuban cigars. cigars smell nice.

why do people say or think they deserve better, especially relationship-wise, and you still stay with what you have? if you truly believe that you deserve something else, don't you think that you would be having that by now? maybe you are just stuck with shit because you deserve it.. so if you think you "deserve" better.. don't be stuck with the worse.

i really think you should stop calling. its not good for the either of us. you've already chose your answer, your priority, and its not me. you should leave me alone, forget about us, before you get hurt.. and before i hate you.

please leave me alone! i have absolutely nothing that you need, i cannot think of anything that you could want from me. my family and i have nothing to benefit you. your family is the better family, okay? i am not good enough to answer your phone calls.. so please.. call someone else that might want to hear about your lovely day. i am but another person walking on the street.. but another weed in the yard. i am letting you know that it does not make my day better that you call and ask me how i am or what i am doing. i am quite fine without it. you actually make me feel sad that you call.. so i actually feel happy that you don't call. thank you..

i'm nothing without you
i'm nothing with out you, girl

make love//tae yang!