i played soccer.. or "futbol" today. Have you ever seen a goalkeeper smoke a cigarette as he was playing and actually blocked goals..?. interesting.

hmm.. life.. the waters are calm now.. waters are always calm before the storm.

sometimes.. I feel like I have this great intuition.. the thing is, it is a lot more advanced than a woman's intuition.. it is like my freakin' sixth sense. Like instead of reading people's minds.. I read what they are feeling inside.. its weird.

i think high school boy/girl relationships are pointless.. they really are just puppy love stuff. I think it is because you're in high school and you don't really worry about stuff yet or things just haven't hit yet. You haven't really thought about like.. "man i gotta work and pay that rent".. or "damn, how am i going to pay for this semester's tuition". You don't think of like starting a family yet when you're in high school, because its.. high school. So everything is just carefree "emotions" and strong "feelings" or just evolving hormones.. but once you get to college.. or within college reach.. or you're in the workforce.. it is different and you have "life" to consider instead of just giving out your feelings to that person all the time. You have to worry what you're going to do to get an education for your future so that you may support your real love in the future.

I guess there are points for everyone in their lives they experience the first heartbreak.. probably usually high school or near there. They will run into some kind of change in the environment they have been used to. Maybe one of them will go on to college and one will still be in high school, or both are in different colleges, or both are in the same college but they just have differences socially or academically. I remember Tiep saying if a girl is the real caring type for you, she will keep on caring for you even if she is put in a different environment and her style of living is totally changed, as we were having coffee the other day. I think this is true in a way, but if it is true, then the girl I have thought that cared for me, is not in fact the caring type.

have you ever been in a situation you were like... "man i wish I could redo this decision.." or "if I could, I would so do it differently..." and then you have these de ja vu situations.. where you're like.. "wow, it felt like I just went through that already.." and then you think.. "hmm.. maybe this de ja vu thing.. maybe I did wish for another chance to redo a decision.. but then i was brought back in time and made the same decision or choice.."

I think after college and everything.. I would want a job out of state.. in a big city somewhere. I want to move out of Oklahoma. I feel like I need to escape this place. There are many faces that I have met and made good relations with but I don't think I can stand this place... not right now, at least. I mean, Oklahoma is a great place to have a family and raise children and stuff but when I am single and in the workforce, I want to explore the world, and conquer it in a way just like any man would.

hmm.. I'm still trying to grow my hair back... the ladies like me with hair.. so you know ;). yeah.. i just want hair now.. sky diving is over and i don't think i'm doing anything very memorable soon so don't need to shave my hair.. but as of now.. i have a 'fro thing..

sometimes when you think you are trying to not hurt me by not being honest.. even when I know it.. it is upsets me many times more later..