"will you still love me in the morning? forever and forever babe"

the tragic story of Romeo and Juliet has influenced and inspired the world for centuries and countless have loved it.. but who wants to really live it?

the coffee prince drama was pretty good. its about this girl that is the head of her family and she works a lot to support her mother and younger sister. she works so much she does not care for herself that much and she looks like a guy. she later found a job at this coffee place but did not reveal her gender because they were only hiring males. she fell for her boss and her boss became attracted to her, too but he thought she was a guy. i wonder how that would make me feel.. it would probably drive my crazy. i would question my sexuality and be scarred for life.

i've been having weird dreams lately. the thing is i don't remember my dreams usually. i know my dreams don't really follow a plot or anything. certain people become others at different times. a certain girl may suddenly become another girl (or even a guy?) at a different point in my dream. there is a part of the dream that i vaguely remember, reading a text message and there was a name that came up but i wish i could remember it. i remember i woke up after reading the text message and told myself to remember the name but i forgot. the name isn't a particular person i know but i remember it was interesting. it was a short, and unusual name i have never seen. there may have been an h, an x, m or something.

i miss that feeling when you first fall in love, or infatuation or whatever it is. i don't miss it, but i do remember it is a great feeling.. it feels better than any drunken night, or just.. anything. those nights you would stay up on the phone all night, until like 4 in the morning. there are times you wouldn't even be talking about anything but you're just on the phone, and there is just a certain comfort to it. you would just lay on your bed, with the phone between your ear and your pillow. it kind of hurts but her soft breathing would make any torture feel like pleasure. its so pleasant that some nights you refuse to hang up even if there is obviously nothing to talk about. you both refuse to admit that you are sleepy as hell just so you can stay on a little longer, as if you were afraid the other would call someone else afterwards. there would be times that you would fall asleep while on the phone and you would wake up in the morning and thought it was a dream because it was so nice to be true but you see your phone underneath your pillow and you look at the calls and realize it was real.. you still can't believe it.. and then she calls you to say good morning or might be angry in a cute way.. griping at you why you didn't answer on the phone as she was trying to say goodnight to you. you try to explain to her that you fell asleep accidentally.. you try to explain to her that it wasn't because she was boring, but it was because her soft, beautiful voice had a certain harmonic tone to it that soothes you like a nice lullaby. does this feeling.. only happen once in a lifetime?

i was watching the drama and it said the times that you suffer from heartbreak or "love" will be the greatest times of your life.. you will be older and you will look back into those times and remember. because you are young and full of youth you will recover nonetheless and shouldn't linger around, especially if you realize your situation. i don't understand how people realize and understand their situation and might even say they attempt to do something about it but they just keep letting themself sink in deeper and deeper and just causing more hurt in the future.

i like say(all i need)//one republic.. its pretty cool. i want a mini cooper now. and a VESPA!!

its already july.. in about a month.. things will get interesting!