as this year is beginning there was such a great vision of this great grandeur but there are already obstacles coming up.. but we pulled through it and hit it hard and to me it was still success even though not as planned.

the first week of school was overwhelming with the classes and school making me so tired. i don't even have time to hang out.. can you believe it? oh well, i think that is for the best. i am starting to feel different about things this year and am having second thoughts.

this house is like a trap.. a curse. last year i would be one of the ones that were always over but now that i am one of the residents there are new people that come and stay over. i just find it funny how this house always has guests. despite the shittyness of the house people feel welcomed here or something.

everytime.. i just want to keep drinking.. and drinking.. and drinking.. so i don't think so much about it. but i actually think more because i try to hold myself back from doing something i will regret. i try to hold myself from saying the things i shouldn't say. i try to hold what i feel what i shouldn't feel because i might do something i will regret. but why do i feel this certain way everytime