baby, you can have whatever you like..

i don't like this position i am in.. i find out that i am too easily attached. its kind of hard to get people to see the way you see when they are blinded by "the other side". i find some people are being too nice as when others are cheating, dirty bastards. but the more i speak of it you may think i am biased. the more i think about this i get so stressed and i put so much time and effort into this, stepping outside of my box, just to try to get some people to realize this vision. i wish i could explain more..

its been pretty boring but busy lately. all i do is school and been busy with rush and stuff. actually, it hasn't been boring.. rush is pretty exciting but its a lot of work. i can't wait til rush is over so i can start focusing on school as much as i want to.

the weather has been pretty gay lately, and because of that, i have caught a cold or something. ugh..

since andy's going away thing and danny talking to me online i've been thinking of old friends and old times and i kind of miss it. there are friends that don't even live far away but we don't even see each other that much anymore maybe because we're not that close or we're just too busy, i don't know but it kind of sucks because after college we only grow more distant. i hope to see danny soon, though.. hhaha

kevin has been living with us for the past week or two. its been pretty nice because its kind of like having a wife or something. he cooks, he cleans, he takes verbal abuse.. lol. but there is no cuddling or anything like that :( haha jk..

i don't know if its because of rush or what but i haven't had the chance to hang out wtih any of the guys much. for example, i used to see hieu all the time last year but i only see him so far only when we have to be around each other. i guess everyone is just busy and plus, i need time to myself and be alone a lot this year to get things done.

i'm sorry if my blog seems emo because i only write about things that bother me. i seldom write about happy things because i only write about that only when its something major and i could talk to anyone about that, but yes. and no, i don't feel comfortable talking about my girl situation if you ask me.. because i don't have a girl "situation" involved.. thanks.