this weekend was pretty fun.. or cool or w/e. i have a lil sis now.. i mean i knew who she was but she now knows who i am. hmm.. i don't really think she likes me all that much but its cool.. especially after thursday night.. there was a party after revealing of lil sis/big bro and stuff and i got a little too crazy but it did not seem like it.. everything came so fast. i had a major hangover for the rest of the day friday... a bad hangover. i really want to say i will be more responsible, because being a big i'm suppose to be somewhat of a good influence but my little came up to me and said i was a bad influence.. T.T so i woke up friday and it felt like a saturday.. lol. then just hung out with the guys.. went to ronny's and cooked some food. later that night we had a video game madness night.. i didn't really play. i just fell asleep and stuff... and then went out to eat lunch i guess.

now i'm home in mustang.. there were some stuff i was planning to do this weekend but i didn't get to. i wanted to talk to someone.. and just get things off my chest. but i got too crazy and stuff. well yea, i wanted to talk to binh just because he seems to understand me pretty well but i think i will wait til next weekend. sometimes you have a lot to say but even if you say it it doesn't really make you feel better.. the problem is still there and you jsut can't help the way you feel. i'm watching the osu texas tech game right now.. penn state was upset by iowa.. i think for ou's benefit i think we want texas tech to win against osu.. anyways

there are certain things you can't try too hard to get. its like chasing a butterfly.. the more you chase after it the harder it is to catch.. its just probably better to let it be. even if it can't be yours