"you took our forever and ever away"

summer is pretty slow right now. nothing but school, work, and going out to a couple high school graduations. class of '09. it has been two years and quite a lot has happened and changed in between. i was looking at high school pictures like relay for life and prom. hmm i don't really know what to say. i've been with kevin and another friend these last two graduations.

i have this friend that i went to high school with. he's pretty childish in many ways. he's childish not in the bad way though. he's pretty innocent and naiive. well, anyways.. in high school he dated this girl that he was basically in love. he would pretty much act a fool for her. there were guys that had liked her and thought she was pretty, but the people that were in the right mind thought she was annoying and didn't treat my friend like he deserved.

so over the time that they were dating, he accumulated all this stuff she gave him. his room because a complete shrine of her. there was one time she bought all this stuff for car. His favorite animal is a penguin so she decorated his whole car with things that had penguins. He had a penguin steering wheel thingy and had penguin seat covers.

after a while, she broke up with him. my friend was in this depressive slump for a long time. she had a new boyfriend and he was still in this depressive mode. they eventually talked again because he wanted to be friends but he's still definitely not over her. His bedroom is still covered with her stuff and i was in his car yesterday and those evil penguins are still there.

last year there was a point where he did meet this girl somewhere. he went out a date with her and then they began dating. they dated for a short while until it didnt work out for some odd reason. he wasn't over his ex girlfriend. my friends life is filled with sad love songs, work, and playing world of warcraft.

anyways, this weekend i went to mustang graduation with him and kevin. i went to basically just to hang out with them because i havent seen them in a while and i've been pretty bored this summer. so the reason they went was because kevin's cousin was graduating and my friend wanted to see his ex girlfriend graduate.

so my friend brought balloons for her even though she has a boyfriend now. afterwards when everyone was outside he was running around looking for her and then he finally found her and gave her the balloons. he follows her and her boyfriend around while she doesn't even notice he exists.

the whole time i just wanted to punch him in the face and say "fuck her and fucking move on". when he's running around following her i'm following him too and i didnt want to look like that. i really care for him even though i sound like a jerk but he has to let her go. she is definately not worth his time or caring. he's been told many times but he is stubborn and gets emotional.

well, i hope he finds someone special soon.

i wish i could talk to you. i had so much i wanted to tell you. i need you more than ever now.. i am really sorry. i hope we can talk again soon.