to talk or not to talk it seems things will be like it was before and it might just be a never ending circle.

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hmm i guess its for real now. i think all i could do is just think positive and try to be happy. it makes life a lot easier. its just once in a while something comes up. overall, i am glad it is how it is i think. there is so much weight lifted off of me. theres nothing holding me back anymore. i want to get really really drunk though.. i think i'd feel better.

i just thought of something pretty recently. girls always say guys can't make up their minds about girls or whatever. i think i found the reason why. if you're a guy, you tend to have this natural ambition or yearning for more. its in everything we do. we are competitive, we can't be content with what we have, we are ambitious. if you are a real man i think if you have a job you don't want to settle with what you have but you want to have more, whether it be money, status, power, respect. so when it comes to girls a guy can grow accustomed to a girl and he can be content. for a while. then he will feel inadequate. he can't really help it but there are just so many girls out there with so many qualities and characteristics. so to fill up a void or searching for something a man has to search for the right things, the right qualities, the right characteristics, the right girls. so it explains when he finds someone he wants but can't have, thats why guys want what they can't have. men love challenges, we work for what we deserve. if something can't be solve we try to find the solution. next time a guy seems indecisive its because he really really can't help it!! its hard to believe but a guy can really love a girl even though it seems he is juggling a couple