friday i played basketball at the huff.. my calf cramped up.. sucks. later that night i went to a teke party. i had a good time.. its a different environment. pretty chill. something happened that night that made me feel pretty good about myself. someone was among her girlfriends and said "tan.. he's such a good guy". it just felt good.. maybe people do like me.
my shoes came in on friday too.. i wore them to the party. i really like them.. and they were only $30.. air flight '89!! the year i was born.. heh
after the party we had taco bell.. then went to taiko house.. then tina's apartment afterwards.. i fell asleep right away. woke up to girls watching us sleep.. awkward.. i felt kind of shitty but after that went to help charlie move to his new place. after that i went back to mustang. i showered then slept until like 6 or something.
kevin came over and we hung out. we were supposed to go to bww and watch the ufc fight. bj penn vs george something.. some canadian guy. it was super crowded and we were there pretty early too.. we just decided to go eat somehwere.. drove around.. then decided to eat at red lobster.. it was.. eh.. whatever. not worth my money.
after that we decided to watch a movie. we wanted to watch gran torino but came there and only had midnight showing and didnt want to wait.. so we decided to go to wal mart and then stop by bww and stand and watch the ufc fight.
at wal mart i bought this bulletin board/dry erase thing.. and a cool obama poster. i was goin to get a maxim calendar but didnt find one. we went to bww afterwards.. i went to the restroom. some drunk guy taking a piss complaining how someone puked in his urinal.. haha. watched the fight.. it was one sided the whole time. didnt even get to 5th round cause bj penn gave up. mma isn't that interesting to me..
oh yea.. jackasses downtown.. at bricktown.. fuckin jackasses..
i want to go to batting cage pretty soon.. and maybe rock climbing.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
i'm about to live somewhere else.. moving out of 2200 rogers circle. its about time. i can't take it anymore!!
these last couple days have been pretty cool. just hanging out. just singing, grilling, drinking, gambling, chillin, "snowboarding", gaming.. pretty sweet. i also made some punch. its not bad.. at all.
these last couple days have been pretty cool. just hanging out. just singing, grilling, drinking, gambling, chillin, "snowboarding", gaming.. pretty sweet. i also made some punch. its not bad.. at all.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
'cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful
the first week of school was okay. i realized how much i want to live somewhere else. its depressing coming home to this dark, creepy, haunting house. it doesn't help that the heat doesn't work and there is no internet. its all the more depressing when i have to come home to all of this-alone. being home in mustang right now feels so good.
i've been working out since i have "time" now. i worked out chest one day and then back the other day and ran a mile. i was sore for a couple days. its pretty cool how i seem different or bigger for the first couple days. i later realized i'm pretty fat. i have kind of a flab on my stomach. i've been watching some of the guys do the p90x workout and now i am tempted to join.
thursday night binh, bj, and me went over to charlie's place and hookah'd. it was good times. we just sat around and chill, trying to do smoke tricks. charlie made us some food like the good pledge daddy he always been. i can french inhale.. kinda. i want a hookah!
last night i just hung out with some people. i watched some flag football in the freezing cold. afterwards, we went to the taiko house and then went to eat at asian buffet because TEA Cafe was crowded. We then headed to the union to attend the Sigma Lambda Gamma probate. It was a good experience. We hung out at the Union for a couple hours taking pictures and stuff. After that, we FINALLY left to the taiko house.
At the taiko house we just played singstar and stuff. I left to go say happy birthday to Phung because she turned 21. It kind of makes me sad that I am getting close to that number. Yes, when i am 21 i won't have be around drinking underage and driving and stuff but it just makes me feel so old.
Later that night some of us headed to the Gammas' afterparty. Taikos rolled in deep and we felt really welcomed by them. I took about 8 shots and had 2 beers. Pretty much all of the liquor was taken by Taiko and Gamma shots. We decided to head back home..
After tim, thomas, and i got back to the house, thomas went to go throw up. weak sauce! i called up some people to see what they were doing and they were at chris bui's and luke's so i headed over there. i drove which wasn't a good idea but i made it.
i arrived at their place and they were making fajitas. it was pretty good. after that was just picture taking and stuff.... i took jannie to her car and then went back to my place and crashed.
its that time of the year again. you know, the phi dee founders' day and taiko founders' day. everyone is talking about who they are taking and who they want to ask and take as a date and stuff. its kind of like prom or something. well, unfortunately for me, no one asked me to phi dee founders' day. yes, i could go by myself or even take someone (i think), but i don't like going by myself. i just want someone to ask me to go for once. that makes me sound stingy and difficult, but its true. i might never even go to a phi dee founders' day.
as for the taiko founders' day, i still don't know who i'll be taking yet. i have some people in mind, though. in the end, it doesn't really matter who i take.
i'm really feelin' Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy right now. I had trouble distinguishing whether if she was a guy or not on the radio but its okay. I think its a pretty good song.. for now.
i hate that point, the moment in time, when you have that realization that you miss that something or someone so much but it was in the past and how things are just not the same anymore... because no one can change time. If you could, would you really change what happened?
i've been working out since i have "time" now. i worked out chest one day and then back the other day and ran a mile. i was sore for a couple days. its pretty cool how i seem different or bigger for the first couple days. i later realized i'm pretty fat. i have kind of a flab on my stomach. i've been watching some of the guys do the p90x workout and now i am tempted to join.
thursday night binh, bj, and me went over to charlie's place and hookah'd. it was good times. we just sat around and chill, trying to do smoke tricks. charlie made us some food like the good pledge daddy he always been. i can french inhale.. kinda. i want a hookah!
last night i just hung out with some people. i watched some flag football in the freezing cold. afterwards, we went to the taiko house and then went to eat at asian buffet because TEA Cafe was crowded. We then headed to the union to attend the Sigma Lambda Gamma probate. It was a good experience. We hung out at the Union for a couple hours taking pictures and stuff. After that, we FINALLY left to the taiko house.
At the taiko house we just played singstar and stuff. I left to go say happy birthday to Phung because she turned 21. It kind of makes me sad that I am getting close to that number. Yes, when i am 21 i won't have be around drinking underage and driving and stuff but it just makes me feel so old.
Later that night some of us headed to the Gammas' afterparty. Taikos rolled in deep and we felt really welcomed by them. I took about 8 shots and had 2 beers. Pretty much all of the liquor was taken by Taiko and Gamma shots. We decided to head back home..
After tim, thomas, and i got back to the house, thomas went to go throw up. weak sauce! i called up some people to see what they were doing and they were at chris bui's and luke's so i headed over there. i drove which wasn't a good idea but i made it.
i arrived at their place and they were making fajitas. it was pretty good. after that was just picture taking and stuff.... i took jannie to her car and then went back to my place and crashed.
its that time of the year again. you know, the phi dee founders' day and taiko founders' day. everyone is talking about who they are taking and who they want to ask and take as a date and stuff. its kind of like prom or something. well, unfortunately for me, no one asked me to phi dee founders' day. yes, i could go by myself or even take someone (i think), but i don't like going by myself. i just want someone to ask me to go for once. that makes me sound stingy and difficult, but its true. i might never even go to a phi dee founders' day.
as for the taiko founders' day, i still don't know who i'll be taking yet. i have some people in mind, though. in the end, it doesn't really matter who i take.
i'm really feelin' Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy right now. I had trouble distinguishing whether if she was a guy or not on the radio but its okay. I think its a pretty good song.. for now.
i hate that point, the moment in time, when you have that realization that you miss that something or someone so much but it was in the past and how things are just not the same anymore... because no one can change time. If you could, would you really change what happened?
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
i went to my first nba/thunder/jazz game the other night. the game itself was pretty good, entertaining-sense, but the seats kevin and i had were gay. its all the way up against the wall. it was so far, the players and the court seemed unreal, the fans cheering seemed unreal. the very top seats were in the dark.. oh well, the tickets were free.
before the game, kevin and i had dinner at korean house in del city. the food was alright. its just "alright" because its korean food i guess, and i was just craving it. i paid for the meal. its beginning to get to me that it feels kind of weird eating out with a guy friend one on one. it just feels kind of like a couple thing to do. i kind of miss the couple thing. ehh
today i just went to watch my brother's basketball game. mustang is hosting a tournament. so i went to the game kind of early and watched the 7th grade girls play. man, the game is so frusrating to watch. every single possession seem to result in a turnover. the game got to a point where it was really physical. a mustang girl knocked a girl over and she flew and slid across the floor. there were plenty of times that that there were loose balls and 5 or 6 girls would dive on each other. yikes
my brothers game finally started and to my disappointment, he didn't get any playing time. i think there was too much on the line for the coach to let him in. the first half of the game his team was up by 11 points. the 2nd half they lost the lead and began losing. in the end, the game was close. it was kind of exciting. well, my brothers team ended up losing by one point. i'll be at their game tomorrow, still in the tournament.
after the game, as i was about to go home, one of the coaches said hi to me. its weird because back then in middle school i was one of those kids no coach would notice or anything in P.E. or school. the coaches usually picked the cool, popular, and/or athletic kids to be their favorites and talked to them more and chose them as the "line" leaders. i just find it interesting he may have recognized me.
before the game, kevin and i had dinner at korean house in del city. the food was alright. its just "alright" because its korean food i guess, and i was just craving it. i paid for the meal. its beginning to get to me that it feels kind of weird eating out with a guy friend one on one. it just feels kind of like a couple thing to do. i kind of miss the couple thing. ehh
today i just went to watch my brother's basketball game. mustang is hosting a tournament. so i went to the game kind of early and watched the 7th grade girls play. man, the game is so frusrating to watch. every single possession seem to result in a turnover. the game got to a point where it was really physical. a mustang girl knocked a girl over and she flew and slid across the floor. there were plenty of times that that there were loose balls and 5 or 6 girls would dive on each other. yikes
my brothers game finally started and to my disappointment, he didn't get any playing time. i think there was too much on the line for the coach to let him in. the first half of the game his team was up by 11 points. the 2nd half they lost the lead and began losing. in the end, the game was close. it was kind of exciting. well, my brothers team ended up losing by one point. i'll be at their game tomorrow, still in the tournament.
after the game, as i was about to go home, one of the coaches said hi to me. its weird because back then in middle school i was one of those kids no coach would notice or anything in P.E. or school. the coaches usually picked the cool, popular, and/or athletic kids to be their favorites and talked to them more and chose them as the "line" leaders. i just find it interesting he may have recognized me.
Monday, January 12, 2009
today, on the way to norman, i finally witnessed something i have always wondered ALL my life. i've always wondered how do the mail delivering trucks get to neighborhoods and stuff. i wondered if mail delivering trucks ever went on the highways. i've wondered because i've NEVER seen one on the highway. well, as you have probably guessed, there it was: the driver on the right side, in the white cube-shaped vehicle, on the highway. amazing.
later, i also saw a truck pulling a trailer and one of the tires on the trailer blew and the truck had to pull over.
also, before work today, i finally got advised to enroll. i'm always pretty bad at getting advised, and somehow get enrolled into my classes okay. i had a pretty good conversation with my advisor today. it made me question if i really wanted to do what i was doing but then again it made me realize i don't know what else i could do. she told me about her life how she was into the same things i were, history, english, writing, some science, and never had a major until her senior year. she later taught french in the phillipines. it was interesting i suppose. at the end of my advising we had the awkward silence. i was pretty sure i was ready to go but she didn't say something like, "okay, you're good to go" or anything. we just sat silently and awkwardly for about 30 seconds. i later had the guts to ask "so.. is that everything? am i good to go?" and somehow it was still awkward.
recently i've been experiencing things that made me realize how old i am getting. during christmas break, when my dad's friend and his family came over, he (my dad's friend) shook my hand. i've always wondered when will i be "old enough" to greet an adult asian man by shaking his hand, and not with the typical greeting children do.
last night i went out to eat with my parents and some people they knew. this older asian man approached and talked to me and we had a conversation about school and stuff. i was pretty surprised because i don't usually have conversations with older people. he went to OU and stayed at the same dorms i stayed. he complained about the frat guys always loud and stuff. haha. he graduated in like 1986 or something with a bachelors in classics? or something and got his masters in california at USBA, which i'm not sure what school that is. he later went to law school at OU, where his tuition was waived and he had $1000 a month to spend. he practiced law for a while and got tired of it and then worked for the post office. he told me working in the health field is a great choice, but he said if i ever got a chance to work for the government, i should take it. the benefits are a plus for my family if i ever decide to have one. interesting.-
later, i also saw a truck pulling a trailer and one of the tires on the trailer blew and the truck had to pull over.
also, before work today, i finally got advised to enroll. i'm always pretty bad at getting advised, and somehow get enrolled into my classes okay. i had a pretty good conversation with my advisor today. it made me question if i really wanted to do what i was doing but then again it made me realize i don't know what else i could do. she told me about her life how she was into the same things i were, history, english, writing, some science, and never had a major until her senior year. she later taught french in the phillipines. it was interesting i suppose. at the end of my advising we had the awkward silence. i was pretty sure i was ready to go but she didn't say something like, "okay, you're good to go" or anything. we just sat silently and awkwardly for about 30 seconds. i later had the guts to ask "so.. is that everything? am i good to go?" and somehow it was still awkward.
recently i've been experiencing things that made me realize how old i am getting. during christmas break, when my dad's friend and his family came over, he (my dad's friend) shook my hand. i've always wondered when will i be "old enough" to greet an adult asian man by shaking his hand, and not with the typical greeting children do.
last night i went out to eat with my parents and some people they knew. this older asian man approached and talked to me and we had a conversation about school and stuff. i was pretty surprised because i don't usually have conversations with older people. he went to OU and stayed at the same dorms i stayed. he complained about the frat guys always loud and stuff. haha. he graduated in like 1986 or something with a bachelors in classics? or something and got his masters in california at USBA, which i'm not sure what school that is. he later went to law school at OU, where his tuition was waived and he had $1000 a month to spend. he practiced law for a while and got tired of it and then worked for the post office. he told me working in the health field is a great choice, but he said if i ever got a chance to work for the government, i should take it. the benefits are a plus for my family if i ever decide to have one. interesting.-
Friday, January 9, 2009
so i will not hide, its time to try, anything to be with you
wouldn't it be awesome if i could make some money blogging? maybe if i was sponsored by 'G'.?
nothing magnificent happened lately. i watched the bcs national championship in norman with some buddies at the taiko house. its so depressing to lose. i hate losing. i felt sad. it made things worse when the media makes tim tebow so righteous, so saintly. it makes me sick. he's been at orphanages and lived in leper colonies. ohhh, goood for him. when he got a penalty for unsportsmanlike conduct against nic harris, the commentators were like "thats probably the only bad thing he's ever done in his life". damn. on the bright side, i won 5$, though. i had a feeling OU was going to lose, so i made a bet with kevin. either way, i would feel kind of happy, right? it just felt right for the gators to win. its just like a well-written story. tim tebow is the protagonist. of course he wins.
anyways, what happened to ryan cabrera?
sometimes i still wonder. i don't think i've had the "closure", or the conclusion i wanted. i don't think the problem has been solved. i do not feel content. actually, i do feel content. sometimes i don't care, but i'm so mixed up in other things right now. i'm such a tangled mess. i'm involved into this mess, and when i pick at one string, looking for an end, i disturb the whole mess.
i'm going to invest into a new hobby that quite a few of ppl have picked up: photography. i'm going to invest into a beginner's digital SLR camera. i'm still not sure what to get, but probably nikon D60 or something. i'm going to take beautiful photos this summer. i'm also looking forward to a new phone in march or so.
i can't wait until the summer. i think it'll be.. legendary.
nothing magnificent happened lately. i watched the bcs national championship in norman with some buddies at the taiko house. its so depressing to lose. i hate losing. i felt sad. it made things worse when the media makes tim tebow so righteous, so saintly. it makes me sick. he's been at orphanages and lived in leper colonies. ohhh, goood for him. when he got a penalty for unsportsmanlike conduct against nic harris, the commentators were like "thats probably the only bad thing he's ever done in his life". damn. on the bright side, i won 5$, though. i had a feeling OU was going to lose, so i made a bet with kevin. either way, i would feel kind of happy, right? it just felt right for the gators to win. its just like a well-written story. tim tebow is the protagonist. of course he wins.
anyways, what happened to ryan cabrera?
sometimes i still wonder. i don't think i've had the "closure", or the conclusion i wanted. i don't think the problem has been solved. i do not feel content. actually, i do feel content. sometimes i don't care, but i'm so mixed up in other things right now. i'm such a tangled mess. i'm involved into this mess, and when i pick at one string, looking for an end, i disturb the whole mess.
i'm going to invest into a new hobby that quite a few of ppl have picked up: photography. i'm going to invest into a beginner's digital SLR camera. i'm still not sure what to get, but probably nikon D60 or something. i'm going to take beautiful photos this summer. i'm also looking forward to a new phone in march or so.
i can't wait until the summer. i think it'll be.. legendary.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
damn.. i'm sick. i have the cold or something. haven't done anything much. worked, played tetris on facebook, watching 'how i met your mother', and attending my brother's basketball game with tiep.
being back at mustang north middle school gave me like walk down memory lane. i've matured so much ever since those days, physically and intellectually. the gym felt so small, as opposed to back then, when it seemed so big and crowded during pep assemblies. the kids are not kids, but not really anything. they're at the point where the girls look older than the boys.
i was walking by these girls today at the school. they said heyy to me and started giggling. maybe it was because they thought i was a jonas brother.. lol. jk anyways i watched te basketball games. kids kept walking by. i don't like being prejudice but i can classify the cliqs or types of kids that walk by. actually, i "can't" but i can have an idea, or think so. there were the "cool" kids rockin' a&f and american eagle and stuff. there were the teenie boppers, all schooled out in makeup and heavy mascara. there were the wrestlers that wore those work boots and jackets. ahh.. reminds me of my days.
anyways, my brother didn't get much playing time but he still got pt on 7th grade A team. that's not much i guess, but he will probably excel more than i ever did. i have high hopes for him. i really love him a lot, but i don't think he knows. i hope he turns out better than i am.
i'm just afraid that things won't be the same when i'm back..
being back at mustang north middle school gave me like walk down memory lane. i've matured so much ever since those days, physically and intellectually. the gym felt so small, as opposed to back then, when it seemed so big and crowded during pep assemblies. the kids are not kids, but not really anything. they're at the point where the girls look older than the boys.
i was walking by these girls today at the school. they said heyy to me and started giggling. maybe it was because they thought i was a jonas brother.. lol. jk anyways i watched te basketball games. kids kept walking by. i don't like being prejudice but i can classify the cliqs or types of kids that walk by. actually, i "can't" but i can have an idea, or think so. there were the "cool" kids rockin' a&f and american eagle and stuff. there were the teenie boppers, all schooled out in makeup and heavy mascara. there were the wrestlers that wore those work boots and jackets. ahh.. reminds me of my days.
anyways, my brother didn't get much playing time but he still got pt on 7th grade A team. that's not much i guess, but he will probably excel more than i ever did. i have high hopes for him. i really love him a lot, but i don't think he knows. i hope he turns out better than i am.
i'm just afraid that things won't be the same when i'm back..
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
as of now, i'm watching the sugar bowl. alabama is losing to utah. it was kind of funny because a while ago i saw a ref throw a penalty flag and it hit a players foot, the flag went into the air and hit a guy in the head. a while ago i returned some movies to family video and bought a mouse at office depot. unfortunately, the mouse isn't working and i will return it tomorrow. i was expecting to play a computer game tonight!
yeserday i just hang helped my dad and hung out with kevin. we went ice skating downtown, it was a last minute thing. as gay as it sounds, i was pretty fun. my feet hurt and i had blisters and stuff but its all good. i rented some movies and watched the godfather. it was pretty good.
i haven't done anything much. i went to the taiko house to celebrate the arrival of the new year, along with binh's 20th birthday. its kind of funny because i didnt drink much because i was going to drive home. i can't remember the last time being so sober. i had fun though, and thats the important thing. i tried dancing up on some females, but its an utter disaster, especially when i'm sober. when i'm not at least half-tipsy, seeing me dance is just like a jester entertaining the court filled with girls. gah.. anways, i also attempted making this drink thing. it was pretty gross but it was fun. there was a half bottle of hawaiian punch and 1/3 of everclear. i poured all of that everclear in here and shook it. it tasted.. gross. throughout the night some other people and i tried to make it better by adding stuff like pineapple/orange juice, fanta orange soda, sugar, lime juice, and other stuff. just sipping and taste testing it throughout the night almost got me buzzed.
i also went through the night without smoking anything!
i kind of have new year's resolutions. i plan to try harder in school, cut down on drinking, and stop smoking in general. i also plan to work out, on routine. i decided this is probably the summer i want to look damn good! it is my last summer as a teenager, and i think i'll be going to a beach. so pretty much i just hope to be a healthy person this year, physically, mentally, and such. i just want to be a better person in general.
anyways, in 2008, and in the past in general, i've made a lot of mistakes that i wish i haven't done. i shouldn't live life without regrets or whatever, but i regret these because its usually the same mistakes over and over. i'm supposed to learn from them right, and become better? well, that hasn't happened and maybe its about time for me to grow up. i'm not getting any younger, and certain people are getting tired of it.
recently i just experienced something that kind of opened my view on commitment.
i wish i wasn't so easily attached to people.
yeserday i just hang helped my dad and hung out with kevin. we went ice skating downtown, it was a last minute thing. as gay as it sounds, i was pretty fun. my feet hurt and i had blisters and stuff but its all good. i rented some movies and watched the godfather. it was pretty good.
i haven't done anything much. i went to the taiko house to celebrate the arrival of the new year, along with binh's 20th birthday. its kind of funny because i didnt drink much because i was going to drive home. i can't remember the last time being so sober. i had fun though, and thats the important thing. i tried dancing up on some females, but its an utter disaster, especially when i'm sober. when i'm not at least half-tipsy, seeing me dance is just like a jester entertaining the court filled with girls. gah.. anways, i also attempted making this drink thing. it was pretty gross but it was fun. there was a half bottle of hawaiian punch and 1/3 of everclear. i poured all of that everclear in here and shook it. it tasted.. gross. throughout the night some other people and i tried to make it better by adding stuff like pineapple/orange juice, fanta orange soda, sugar, lime juice, and other stuff. just sipping and taste testing it throughout the night almost got me buzzed.
i also went through the night without smoking anything!
i kind of have new year's resolutions. i plan to try harder in school, cut down on drinking, and stop smoking in general. i also plan to work out, on routine. i decided this is probably the summer i want to look damn good! it is my last summer as a teenager, and i think i'll be going to a beach. so pretty much i just hope to be a healthy person this year, physically, mentally, and such. i just want to be a better person in general.
anyways, in 2008, and in the past in general, i've made a lot of mistakes that i wish i haven't done. i shouldn't live life without regrets or whatever, but i regret these because its usually the same mistakes over and over. i'm supposed to learn from them right, and become better? well, that hasn't happened and maybe its about time for me to grow up. i'm not getting any younger, and certain people are getting tired of it.
recently i just experienced something that kind of opened my view on commitment.
i wish i wasn't so easily attached to people.
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