you don't know what the future beholds yet, so do you really know its for the better? what you can do is be a friend to me right now and say, "make the best of what you have right now" and just be there for me. that's all i need. don't tell me i didn't try because you were too stupid to see

i stay up all night thinking, and thinking. when i wake up i don't want to get up. i watch this ceiling fan keep spinning and spinning as this song i keep putting on repeat and keeps replaying.

all this isn't even just about a girl. its just everything that i'm going through. just everything and she was my only lifeline, she was my thread to this sanity and it just made everything crash down like these icicles from this cold and lonely house.

".. its so cold without her.. so cold without her" and again i lay in a cold place. and again, the only thing keeping me warm at night is this overheating laptop i keep on all night because i keep putting this song on repeat.

i don't want your pity. i don't want too much attention. i just want to know you were even worth defending for when you didn't know it.