DRIVE MY SOUL by Lights..

its a cool song.

have you ever wondered what true love really is, despite how wonderful your life is with your significant other? is it the feeling of the moment, when you are with that someone, and you don't even have to be in each other's arms, but it just feels perfect like the world exists for you at that very moment? Is love the caring for the other even when you know you will not get in return? Those long nights that you have staying up wondering how the other person is doing. Your mind wanders and worry about that other person, forgetting your own well-being. You may even have sacrificed many things for this person without this person knowing and/or appreciating but you never cared or asked for anything in return but for that person to know that you even exist.

Can love really conquer all? Will your status in society really mean nothing when it comes to love? Will you disobey your parents to be with the one you believe you love? Let's say Ethan is a regular man that has graduated from a high school from Smallville from the top of his graduating class. Keep in mind he attended a regular high school to attend a grand, fabulous University. His grades are not great, but actually inches from horrible. Some may have say he had fucked up. But in the midst of it all, he has found the motivation to work for the grades he knows he deserves. This motivation he found from his family, and maybe the biggest, his "love" Valerie. They went to high school together but she is two grades younger. She left Smallville to go to a boarding school of high honor.

Valerie goes to this school and suffers from the lack of freedom and vigorous classes and studying. Valerie has met new friends and become close with a lot of boys and goes to prom with one of the boys but didn't tell Ethan until Ethan finds out. Of course, there relationship has been rocky from the beginning but for some reason there is something holding them together. Ethan, a good, honest man with principles has never laid a finger on another girl besides Valerie thinks of her all the time, wondering how she is doing in a strange school with strangers. Valerie's mom knows of this relationship but encourages Valerie to forget Ethan and move on to someone more fitting, because Ethan is known to be a slacker.

What is this bond really from Ethan and Valerie? Is it love? Realistically, it is a bond formed over many courses of experiences together and just spending time together and sharing so much between the two. If there was love in this situation they would somehow overcome these obstacles and just care for the well-being of each other, it would work out and be so simple. There is a theory that if every single human on this planet wanted to do a single something, they could do it. That would mean if any two people put effort into one thing, their relationship, they could do anything. This effort could possibly be called love?

I've always wondered.. How do people move on from their first, real, deep relationship? It must be really hard because the people still stuck in it don't realize there must be something better out there. They're just there, being hurt, and keep on hoping that somehow this precious relationship will mend itself and everything will be the same. Of course, this isn't going to happen if only one person wants it to work. First loves staying together is definitely possible, of course..

I find females are the greatest evils of all evil. The media portrays men as assholes of the world, which i have to agree sometimes but not even half the time. I think women are so scandalous and manipulative. They are born that way so they can survive within their own kind, in my opinion. There's always gossip, cheating, and lies. Women tend to tear brotherhood apart and eat them alive. Just kidding.. but I think women are a lot worse than men in what I've seen. The smart ones are scandalous and manipulative, anyways. I think usually when "boys" first tend to "love" they don't have much experience so they tend to hurt the "girl". After experience these "boys" grow up to be "men" and meet other "girls" that have grown up to be "women". By this time these "women" have grown some self-defense mechanism of hurt!

So how do you let a girl know that what you feel towards her is very sincere, even when you try to let her know it over and over again? I wonder if there are any books that show how a female thinks..

its very weird seeing people that were together not together but they should be together because sometimes... you're just wasting time and hurting yourself in between!

anyways..