'cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful

the first week of school was okay. i realized how much i want to live somewhere else. its depressing coming home to this dark, creepy, haunting house. it doesn't help that the heat doesn't work and there is no internet. its all the more depressing when i have to come home to all of this-alone. being home in mustang right now feels so good.

i've been working out since i have "time" now. i worked out chest one day and then back the other day and ran a mile. i was sore for a couple days. its pretty cool how i seem different or bigger for the first couple days. i later realized i'm pretty fat. i have kind of a flab on my stomach. i've been watching some of the guys do the p90x workout and now i am tempted to join.

thursday night binh, bj, and me went over to charlie's place and hookah'd. it was good times. we just sat around and chill, trying to do smoke tricks. charlie made us some food like the good pledge daddy he always been. i can french inhale.. kinda. i want a hookah!

last night i just hung out with some people. i watched some flag football in the freezing cold. afterwards, we went to the taiko house and then went to eat at asian buffet because TEA Cafe was crowded. We then headed to the union to attend the Sigma Lambda Gamma probate. It was a good experience. We hung out at the Union for a couple hours taking pictures and stuff. After that, we FINALLY left to the taiko house.

At the taiko house we just played singstar and stuff. I left to go say happy birthday to Phung because she turned 21. It kind of makes me sad that I am getting close to that number. Yes, when i am 21 i won't have be around drinking underage and driving and stuff but it just makes me feel so old.

Later that night some of us headed to the Gammas' afterparty. Taikos rolled in deep and we felt really welcomed by them. I took about 8 shots and had 2 beers. Pretty much all of the liquor was taken by Taiko and Gamma shots. We decided to head back home..

After tim, thomas, and i got back to the house, thomas went to go throw up. weak sauce! i called up some people to see what they were doing and they were at chris bui's and luke's so i headed over there. i drove which wasn't a good idea but i made it.

i arrived at their place and they were making fajitas. it was pretty good. after that was just picture taking and stuff.... i took jannie to her car and then went back to my place and crashed.

its that time of the year again. you know, the phi dee founders' day and taiko founders' day. everyone is talking about who they are taking and who they want to ask and take as a date and stuff. its kind of like prom or something. well, unfortunately for me, no one asked me to phi dee founders' day. yes, i could go by myself or even take someone (i think), but i don't like going by myself. i just want someone to ask me to go for once. that makes me sound stingy and difficult, but its true. i might never even go to a phi dee founders' day.

as for the taiko founders' day, i still don't know who i'll be taking yet. i have some people in mind, though. in the end, it doesn't really matter who i take.

i'm really feelin' Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy right now. I had trouble distinguishing whether if she was a guy or not on the radio but its okay. I think its a pretty good song.. for now.

i hate that point, the moment in time, when you have that realization that you miss that something or someone so much but it was in the past and how things are just not the same anymore... because no one can change time. If you could, would you really change what happened?