i am now home.. recovering from my hangover.
so yesterday was a busy day.
i woke up late and went to christmas headstart.
paulinna came to norman to visit me and we went out to lunch and just hung out. :)
after that, i went to help prepare for the TKO/PHI D thanksgiving dinner.
dinner began at 7. it was great seeing old faces and then there were new faces. it was really nice. there was a lot of food and it was good! afterwards we went to the taiko house to hang out and drink/party. the mu class of phi d recently crossed so we were celebrating that, too.
so congratulations phi delta alpha's mu class! i love cing! even though she tricks me and makes me look stupid.
i got pretty drunk that night and then i tried taking care of cing but at some point in the night i was throwing up and she took care of me. it was nice. its pretty cool seeing the mu class drinking, because i know they've been waiting. at least i know cing was.
there are things that i remember, that makes me wonder. just maybe little things. perhaps. but when i'm drunk there are certain things that my sensitivity increases and i think about it and i cant stop thinking about it.

i want to show you i care, because i really do. i know your defenses are up. you don't have to tear your wall down for me, just at least answer the door when i knock. i really care and i just want to be by your side.

i know there are many times i should feel really happy, but why do i always feel hurt inside.